Eating disorder recovery is hard work. A raw and honest account of recovery from orthorexia, from a Guest Blogger.
When reading this blog, we suggest to go at your pace and be mindful of where you are at in your eating disorder recovery. Go gently.
I can easily resent hunger. That gnawing sensation of my body wanting, needing food. How it seems so needy, how dare it asks. No. I will not listen to you. Stop bothering me. At some time, I will cave in though. Because my body needs to be fed, deserves to be fed. (But not yet.) I despise the request. I would rather not feel hunger ever. But that never happens, either. Never will happen. Because I am more than willpower. I am a woman. Yet why does this hunger speak so loud? I feed it often enough, so I believe.
Eventually, I know it will settle down, this gnawing. Hunger becomes settled. Hunger will become rhythmic. How? Well, I learn.
I feed the hunger, the body works for a while, the hunger returns, the body is fed again, I work and this repeats till the body prepares for sleep. I sleep. I awake. Repeat. And that is how I recover.
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